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The Last Time We Say Goodbye by Cynthia Hand

Summary:
There’s death all around us. We just don’t pay attention. Until we do.
Since her brother, Tyler, committed suicide, Lex has been trying to keep her grief locked away. But memories of Tyler haunt her every step, and there’s a secret she hasn’t told anyone-a text Tyler sent, that could have changed everything.
Lex’s brother is gone. But Lex is about to discover that a ghost doesn’t have to be real to keep you from moving on.
Review:
Cynthia Hand is an author I’d heard of in passing but didn’t actually pick up any of her books until The Lady Janies series that she writes with Jodi Meadows and Brodi Ashton. So when I found some of Cynthia Hand’s book on BookOutlet I bought them. I’m glad I picked this one up because it was a beautiful story. Though, I listened to this on audio from my library.
We follow Lex as she tries to deal with the fact that her brother killed himself. This was such a powerful story about grief and what comes after losing someone. I really cannot imagine what it is like to be the surviving sibling. I have three brothers and two sisters and I really cannot even fathom what it would be like to lose a single one of them, let along for one of them to take their own life. So that was hard for me. It was tough to think about, but it makes Lex relatable because she’s sad and essentially stopped doing anything and everything that she loves. She is forever changed. We start off following Lex as she is in therapy. I thought that was really interesting because it’s basically saying that it’s okay to get help and that sometimes you need to talk to someone. I think that Lex developed beautifully. She was realistic with her grief, but also let herself slowly take steps forward to moving on with her life. Part of her wanted to live in her grief and misery, but she knew she shouldn’t and did her best to make those small steps forward.
There were a handful of supporting characters that made the story just that much better. So many people care about Lex and do what they can despite her pushing them away. I liked her friends because they just kept trying, while also knowing when to give her space.
The other thing I really enjoyed about this book is the flashbacks. Throughout the story Lex is writing letters about “the last times.” So, while she’s writing these letters, she is essentially telling us about these times in the past in a way that transported the reader there. I really love stories that do this, the time traveling in stories is one of my favorite things. I just love getting to see into the past, while still being in the story if that makes sense.
The Last Time We Say Goodbye was an insightful and thoughtful book about what happens to those that are left behind when someone kills themselves. This book got me thinking, and kept it that way. I think it was wonderfully written. I also really loved the ending. I think the ending was absolutely perfect.
I mentioned that I listened to the audiobook. I think the narrator was absolutely incredible. She kept me interested. She gave distinctly different voices to all the characters. I really loved listening to this story. I wish it was one that was talked about more often.

Keep on reading lovelies, Amanda.

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One Small Thing by Erin Watt

Summary:
Beth’s life hasn’t been the same since her sister died. Her parents try to lock her down, believing they can keep her safe by monitoring her every move. When Beth sneaks out to a party one night and meets the new guy in town, Chase, she’s thrilled to make a secret friend. It seems a small thing, just for her.
Only Beth doesn’t know how big her secret really is…
Fresh out of juvie and determined to start his life over, Chase has demons to face and much to atone for, including his part in the night Beth’s sister died. Beth, who has more reason than anyone to despise him, is willing to give him a second chance. A forbidden romance is the last thing either of them planned for senior year, but the more time they spend together, the deeper their feelings get.
Now Beth has a choice to make—follow the rules, or risk tearing everything apart…again.
one small thingReview:
I received this book from NetGalley as an ARC (though I think the book was released last month). I was super excited to get this book because I read the Royals series also by Erin Watt and I really enjoyed it. The synopsis of this story was really intriguing to me. I really enjoy reading about characters going through some trauma or awful life event and coming out better on the other side. There’s always just really great character development in books like this. One Small Thing was no different.
I knew I was going to like Beth within the first few pages because of one specific line. She’s told by her mother to clean the area for her stuff in their mudroom and while she’s doing so she’s telling us what she has there. One of the things she moves around and cleans is “a stack of Sarah J. Maas books that I’m reading for the eightieth time.” Right there I knew I liked her because I absolutely adore a main character that reads, though this was really the only mention of books, that’s okay. I really enjoyed reading about Beth and her struggle to deal with her feelings of grief and frustration that come with the death of a loved one. It was really interestingly written in a way that she wasn’t really able to properly grieve because she was so upset about so many other things in her life, such as her parents and their suffocating and unbearable rules. Because of her parents’ behavior, she starts to rebel and just finds herself in more and more trouble.
I understand that her parents are grieving the loss of their firstborn daughter and they want to protect the daughter that they do still have left, but I think they went overboard. It was to the point where if I were Beth I would have absolutely run away and stayed somewhere else away from them. I would not have been able to deal with them and just take the crap they were throwing at Beth.
I absolutely adored Chase. I was right alongside Beth falling in love with him even though everyone thought it was wrong. This is a guy that Beth was supposed to hate, but she finds herself attracted to him before she knows who he is. Then after she finds out who she is she deals with the shame and guilt because all of these people are telling her how she should be feeling, but she’s still drawn to him, still attracted to him. Let me just say, I LOVE FORBIDDEN LOVE. In this book, it has more frowned upon love than actually forbidden, but the feels are still the same. I honestly could not get enough of Beth and Chase together. They were just so good for one another even though they both tried to fight it. They were both what the other needed. Chase has no problem telling Beth she was being a spoiled ass brat and she needed to think about her actions and how she was treating people. This really had an effect on Beth. This wasn’t the only thing that Chase set her straight about either. I think that’s why I liked them so much because neither was afraid to tell the other how things really are and they need to get over themselves and do better. They’re just two people that were different parts of a horrible life event that were trying to figure out how to move forward and continue living their best lives. I see no reason why they shouldn’t be allowed to do that together.
There were a few side characters that I just have to mention. Jeff was garbage and I hate him. That’s all I’m going to say about him or else I will rant and I don’t want to do that. Beth’s best friend Scarlett is one that I mostly liked. They fight like typical high school girls and it was sad and horrible and made me really happy that I don’t have to deal with that petty drama anymore. Fighting about boys and not listening to your friends who are almost always right, it was super relatable but also made me mad because I’m out of that phase of life. There were a few members of staff at Beth’s high school that I just really loved. I think the high school did an excellent job of trying to support Beth and checking in with her even though she’s a high schooler that doesn’t want to talk about her feelings with any adults. I think it was a nice touch to the story.
Overall, I was pleased with this book. It was a really interesting read about two characters trying to deal with the same traumatic event where one is the victim and the other caused it. There was such a fascinating dynamic to this story and I loved every second of the forbidden love aspect. I also liked the tie-in with the title of the book. The idea is that you just need ‘one small thing’ to get you through each day. It was a really nice input into the story and it was something that I could really relate to within my own life. The writing wasn’t overly fancy or complicated so it made for an easy read of a story I really enjoyed. I liked most of the characters well enough but adored our two main characters. This was a nice quick read with a great story.
Keep on reading lovelies, Amanda.